Friday, September 22, 2006

You Frustrate me

By: RDV


I watch myself vanish behind a thick glass of inferiority
While you worry yourself sick with oil prices,
Rat-tat-tatting in rapid excellence about what the economy misses
Right in front of you.
Shame, you hiss.
Yeah, I reply with a nod, with spurious concern.
I dry myself up to collapse on the sheets
As your vocabulary haunts the ghost of my shut-eye.
I never can explicate the tirelessness of your machine,
And the thickness of my defense.
In my nightmare you make one of my dreams come true;
When I awake, you debunk the rest of my wishes.
Breed some originality in yourself in my name, will you?
Don’t withhold the grace of your folly
For that’s what I loved you for.
Flaunt to me your generosity.
And with one bitter pill at a time,
Present me with that kind of white surrender,
The one that’ll let you go of me.

Sunday, September 17, 2006

Not Much

By: RDV


There is a convention known to man and woman,
A challenge of fate weighed by the magnitude of a dare,
Gullibility, or simply recklessness.
Red lights, dark skies, intoxication and the like;
Tell me how do you resist the reprehensible, corporeal
Rush of compulsion?
How do you spend a beautiful night with a complete stranger?
And not wake up the next morning
With mortal fear, with regret unending?
Allow me then to tell you her story,
She who groped to the limit, up to where joy could take her;
She opened her eyes to see how much she claimed she was worth
And only saw two figures.
That's when she knew he had stripped her down to her shadow.
Bare and white, not immaculate, but naked through and through.

Saturday, September 16, 2006

Fallen Hair

By: RDV


Maybe I was too tired to notice your silent exodus,
Or maybe it was you that was weary and old and brittle and succumbing.
The girl who owned you, did she teach you how to fight extinction?
The ground you stood on, did it ever do more than to channel you up in the air,
and hold you idly?
Otherwise, would you be blocking the sink, filtering dead skin,
blackening passages on whim?
I don't think so.
Were you a cube of ice, I would've loved to watch you melt
Between my fingers.
Were you a deadly fire, I would risk my life to extinguish your core.
But you are several times more, and what could a girl do
But to powerlessly wish that you don't make her pretty?
Hence we shall continue our own battle to nourish you.

Sunday, September 03, 2006

A Bygone Time

By: RDV


It was the dawn of change for Nadine, sixteen, on the fat camp and grumpy as an inevitable consequence. From her window seeped the sound of the neighbors’ afternoon ruckus, faithfully presided over, and which they unsuccessfully tried to conceal by honking up Black-Eyed Peas’ Don’t Lie in maximum volume. She idly wangled away from the bed to reach for the Oreo cookies of last night’s upset snack. Beside them stood a cup of nearly spoilt milk, reeking of fermentation and discolored. She exhausted both, ignoring the prelude of nausea that had since begun creeping its way to her throat. Then she landed back on the bed as though somebody just pulled the rug from under her.

At he same time her mother wondered what her daughter had for lunch and after reassuring herself that she, Nadine, hadn’t yet died of famine, she focused her eyes back on the house of card in her hands.

Her playmate, Katrina, had neither the talent nor luck for the game. Loss after staggering loss, she went locking herself up first place on the player list as her husband stayed back in the house, struggling to keep things in good condition although he never really knew the first thing about hushing the kids up.

A few feet short of ten meters loomed the basketball court. Gavril, high school point guard, had no idea what he just agreed to do when he decided to do his friend a favor. He kept his pound of hashish underneath his underwear drawer. Reagan, another friend, just managed a quick draw, setting the match in a runoff. At the rise of pleasure, to his misfortune, he committed a flagrant foul in an attempt to fly-swat an opponent. It gave his teammates’ girlfriends something to grouch about , and their scowl and growl were hard to miss amidst the craze.

Away from all this disorder, at the hindmost part of the village lived a girl named Rosalie. At the present she was clutching a silver charm bracelet, a souvenir from her memorable childhood, entrusted to her by a lovely boy named Axel. Axel and his family moved away several years prior after convincing their offended neighbors that they were pleased to make their acquaintance but they just couldn’t stay in one place in the span of three years. On a lucid day in May, their bags were carried off far, far away. It left Rosie lambent for days.

Her sister Madeleine was given a curt ultimatum by her sweetheart. (If you care, now’s the time to show it!) She didn’t, but what harm would it do to pretend? She began contemplating on how to be expansive, how to keep the relationship well-lubricated, but for whose benefit, she didn’t know. Days later, it occurred to her that she would have to make up a thousand lies before he decided that all this affected her. She eventually threw all caution to the wind and cut him out of her life.

Between Rom and Melissa, they could honestly tell that their son had gender issues. They tried to force a confession out of his mouth, believing that this ridiculous secrecy caused him to suffer his head off. Homosexuality didn’t grow around the place; but if their son admitted to it, they’d love him not the less. They missed by a mile though, since all there was to it was that their son was a crack-peddler. They’d have to guess again.

Their other child, Carol, lately got into the habit of biting her nails, something like a blast from her toddler-hood. Not knowing that she was being criticized for it, she went to watch a horror movie as an occasional treat, and there bit her nails for hours on end. Her date, Ryan, ironically found it cute and made a point of hinting that it was so.

Ryan though had a different story. He had to use the most of what he knew to weasel himself out of sure failure, in Economics. Against the self-evident truth of his hopelessness, he planned in detail to cheat his way out with a perfect score. Explanation could wait later.

Nize of the upper town rebelled against the notion of Christianity. Pretty, proud and fierce, she wrote essays, dark poems and other various pieces about religious deception. She did so with passion, despite the fact that her knowledge was practically limited to the preposterousness of the bible and the non-appearance of the divnites included in said articles.

And Reese who adored her was never sure why and how she turned into a beast of darkness, the exact opposite of his ideal wife. He couldn’t make her see the light in any way, form or shape. The other day she told him to jerk off. As he stared back at her, he dreamed of instilling in her the nobility she lacked; love, beauty and truth, and his eyes blazed with how much he wanted to say to her. In vain.